There were words I wanted to say,
but didn’t know how.
Because how do you explain perpetual heartbreak?
And how do you say “I’m sorry”
and “I love you”
in the same sentence?
How do you ask someone to stay?
How do you tell them how you really feel?
How do you explain that your chest is heavy?
And how do you explain that every task on your to-do list
is a chore?
without becoming a burden?
Explain to me because I want to know
Will you still love me when I am so sorrowful?
Will you hold my hand even though it is so heavy?
Am I allowed to apologize for being too much or will you become annoyed
because I am considered too needy?
Tell me because I need to know.
My heart is too heavy for jokes and fallacies.
I am too unclear to understand the ideas you are connecting with simple words.
I know I’m not the only one.
Are the hands that cradle the stars still holding my heart?